aimless thoughts.

Food always tastes better late-night. Current addiction: Choco Pie.

Just when I started to believe that relationships weren't my cup of tea I meet a cute, real girl. I refuse to succumb to her sweet words of temptation. "She ain't gon' tie me down."

My Professor showed us this video today. To think that the world could end like this is a bit scary but, enthralling.

I can't remember the last time I felt this way, but the other day I thought of you. I miss you...

"I don't want to say good bye to you, so I'll just say good night to you." - Kanye West

fix you.

Song of the day, Fix You by Coldplay. This song never gets old and the meaning behind this song inspires me. Chris Martin wrote these lyrics for his wife, Gwyneth Paltrow, after her father passed away. She came home from the hospital covered and drenched in tears. He started crying and asked her, "What can I do for you? Tell me how I can help." She looked up at him, and said "Just hold me, cause you're the only thing that can fix me right now." He wrote these lyrics the next day...

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

mentally sound.

I made a music playlist. It has everything from Fob to Rap, Alternative to Techno. I really don't know what I'd do without my music. Not a day goes by where I'm not blasting my iTunes obnoxiously with my grandparents yelling at me to lower the volume. It really keeps me sane from this stressful world and annoying people. Speaking of annoying people, there is a particular somebody that seriously makes me want to slap them. Like this for example:

She's like those little flies (in Korean they're called Nahl Pah Lee) that refuse to go away even though you try and swat them. I do nothing to encourage her to keep talking to me and be all buddy-buddy but she is still persistent in trying to get me to acknowledge her presence. I mean if anything, I make it obvious that I do not want to interact with her in any way. If I didn't know her through church, I probably would have made her cry already. Her constant need for attention from anybody in her vicinity drives me insane which leads to me wanting my music more than ever.

On a lighter note, I got to hang out with my friend from NY/TX that came to visit and it was good to see an old friend. I think one of the things I enjoy most in life is seeing an old face and how much they've changed. Whenever I talk with my friend Peter about reunions and such with all the people from Dallas, it gets me excited to see them. I do miss everyone in Texas, but for sure would not be down to live there. Maybe after I get married to raise my kids there. Anyways, for the first time in my life I drank on a school night on a Tuesday. It was my friend's last day here in L.A. and so we went to a bar with her and some other people. Didn't plan on getting drunk but did so and felt a little buzzed the next morning and went to class still dazed. Oh well better than being hungover right?

Speaking of which, last weekend I went to my doctor to receive a flu shot. Haven't gotten one in years but due to this flu that everyone's been getting, my parents made me get one. So I went to the doctor, got the shot from the nurse (I hate needles and it hurt btw) and was about to leave, but my STUPID self felt the urge to ask her if this little lump in my throat was anything serious. My friend had told me a week earlier that if there's any kinda lump/little ball in your throat, it could be cancerous. The nurse gave me a worried look even though I asked her casually and not worried at all and quickly said we need to check it out and placed me in a room for my doctor to see. Not surprised, the doctor said it was nothing and everyone has little lumps in different places in their throats. But as I was getting up ready to leave, he stopped me and suggested that I get a blood test...

Never have I ever been able to donate blood or get blood tested because the thought of having a needle suck out my blood into a tube was frightening. Yeah I'm a manly man but needles are just not my thing. But the worst part is, I had drank the two nights before that morning and it had only been about 12 hours since I was at a bar gulping down alcohol. I was trippin' because I'm not sure if alcohol is able to stay in your blood that long and my parents still to this day don't know that I drink. Them finding out through my doctor is really not my ideal way of revealing the truth as to what I'm doing on the weekends. So I'm praying that the results from my test come out negative to alcohol and more importantly, any diseases.

I need to stop watching so much TV...but there are sooo many good shows on right now during the week. It's ri-di-cu-lous.

Monday - MondayNightFootball, How I Met Your Mother, Gossip Girl

Tuesday - The Hills/The City

Wednesday - Glee and RW/RR Challenge: The Ruins

Thursday - FlashForward, Community, The Office, 30 Rock

So many shows, not enough time.