kitkat.

I should be finishing my take-home midterm right now, but I need a damn break.

NBA SEASON IS FINALLY HERE! All the anticipation for this upcoming season was well worth it. Lakers started off with a win on their Championship Ring Night. The smile on Kobe's face was so contagious that it made my whole family sit there grinning at the TV. I may not know Kobe personally, but man do I respect the guy. Not only is he the best at what he does, but works harder than anyone to BE the best at what he does. I just read today that other superstars in the league, such as Dwayne Wade, have a picture up in their workout room of Kobe to motivate them. That's just crazy. And a bit gay. No-homo. I wish I had his work ethic. Hard work ethic brings home little goodies such as this...

I just realized that lately most of the people that I talk to, minus Julie haha, have some sort of girl/boy problem. Seriously though when they tell me about it along with all of their problems and insecurities, I laugh in my head. Maybe out loud for some. People don't want to get hurt and that's obvious. To me they're just digging themselves a bigger hole thinking they found the so called "treasure" only making it harder to get out. They think they've landed on the "X" on their first try, but they haven't even SEEN the whole map. It's an "X" for a reason...cause they're going to BE your Ex. My treasure will be marked with an "O" haha. I learned the hard way and I guess you could say I learned from my mistakes and so will the friends that I talk to. That's a part of life I guess.

For the people stuck in those deep holes, I would play 99 Problems by Jay-Z for them on the ground above and walk away listening to Just Friends by Musiq Soulchild. Nice guys finish last.

shoe strings.

So an update on the recent girl that I met, she is ridiculous. What started out as innocent commenting on Facebook, is now complete annoyance. We started talking on AIM, she then asked for my number, texted, and then she CALLS me. All of this happened within 24 hours. I mean what kind of girl calls the guy first? Isn't that breaking girl code? I know it's breaking some kind of code and seriously, haven't been more turned off in my life. Didn't think someone cute could be so ugly within that short time frame. Even Barney wouldn't hit that. Ugh...clingers.

"Can't tie me down like a pair of shoe strings."

aimless thoughts.

Food always tastes better late-night. Current addiction: Choco Pie.

Just when I started to believe that relationships weren't my cup of tea I meet a cute, real girl. I refuse to succumb to her sweet words of temptation. "She ain't gon' tie me down."

My Professor showed us this video today. To think that the world could end like this is a bit scary but, enthralling.

I can't remember the last time I felt this way, but the other day I thought of you. I miss you...

"I don't want to say good bye to you, so I'll just say good night to you." - Kanye West

fix you.

Song of the day, Fix You by Coldplay. This song never gets old and the meaning behind this song inspires me. Chris Martin wrote these lyrics for his wife, Gwyneth Paltrow, after her father passed away. She came home from the hospital covered and drenched in tears. He started crying and asked her, "What can I do for you? Tell me how I can help." She looked up at him, and said "Just hold me, cause you're the only thing that can fix me right now." He wrote these lyrics the next day...

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

mentally sound.

I made a music playlist. It has everything from Fob to Rap, Alternative to Techno. I really don't know what I'd do without my music. Not a day goes by where I'm not blasting my iTunes obnoxiously with my grandparents yelling at me to lower the volume. It really keeps me sane from this stressful world and annoying people. Speaking of annoying people, there is a particular somebody that seriously makes me want to slap them. Like this for example:

She's like those little flies (in Korean they're called Nahl Pah Lee) that refuse to go away even though you try and swat them. I do nothing to encourage her to keep talking to me and be all buddy-buddy but she is still persistent in trying to get me to acknowledge her presence. I mean if anything, I make it obvious that I do not want to interact with her in any way. If I didn't know her through church, I probably would have made her cry already. Her constant need for attention from anybody in her vicinity drives me insane which leads to me wanting my music more than ever.

On a lighter note, I got to hang out with my friend from NY/TX that came to visit and it was good to see an old friend. I think one of the things I enjoy most in life is seeing an old face and how much they've changed. Whenever I talk with my friend Peter about reunions and such with all the people from Dallas, it gets me excited to see them. I do miss everyone in Texas, but for sure would not be down to live there. Maybe after I get married to raise my kids there. Anyways, for the first time in my life I drank on a school night on a Tuesday. It was my friend's last day here in L.A. and so we went to a bar with her and some other people. Didn't plan on getting drunk but did so and felt a little buzzed the next morning and went to class still dazed. Oh well better than being hungover right?

Speaking of which, last weekend I went to my doctor to receive a flu shot. Haven't gotten one in years but due to this flu that everyone's been getting, my parents made me get one. So I went to the doctor, got the shot from the nurse (I hate needles and it hurt btw) and was about to leave, but my STUPID self felt the urge to ask her if this little lump in my throat was anything serious. My friend had told me a week earlier that if there's any kinda lump/little ball in your throat, it could be cancerous. The nurse gave me a worried look even though I asked her casually and not worried at all and quickly said we need to check it out and placed me in a room for my doctor to see. Not surprised, the doctor said it was nothing and everyone has little lumps in different places in their throats. But as I was getting up ready to leave, he stopped me and suggested that I get a blood test...

Never have I ever been able to donate blood or get blood tested because the thought of having a needle suck out my blood into a tube was frightening. Yeah I'm a manly man but needles are just not my thing. But the worst part is, I had drank the two nights before that morning and it had only been about 12 hours since I was at a bar gulping down alcohol. I was trippin' because I'm not sure if alcohol is able to stay in your blood that long and my parents still to this day don't know that I drink. Them finding out through my doctor is really not my ideal way of revealing the truth as to what I'm doing on the weekends. So I'm praying that the results from my test come out negative to alcohol and more importantly, any diseases.

I need to stop watching so much TV...but there are sooo many good shows on right now during the week. It's ri-di-cu-lous.

Monday - MondayNightFootball, How I Met Your Mother, Gossip Girl

Tuesday - The Hills/The City

Wednesday - Glee and RW/RR Challenge: The Ruins

Thursday - FlashForward, Community, The Office, 30 Rock

So many shows, not enough time.

to waiting.

Last night's episode of The Office was the best episode hands down. It had the perfect amount of funny and drama and I must say, Jim & Pam are THE perfect couple. Dwight never fails to amuse me. Michael never fails to be awkward. Kevin never fails to make me laugh hysterically. Andy never fails to surprise me with his random emotions. Creed...is Creed. The opening sketches are so random and distinct, it reminds me of the videos we make at Church in Jr High. All of these elements are combined to make, in my opinion, the best comedy on television. It's the only show that can actually make me "Laugh Out Loud."

Jim's toast about waiting was perfect...until the last bit. Because the episode was so good, I think I'm going to watch it again..

ear candy.

There's nothing I enjoy more than listening to new music. Recently, I've downloaded the new Boys Like Girls and Relient K albums. Both are pretty good and recommend them to anyone that's a fan of the two bands.

Love Drunk & Forget and Not Slow Down

And also, Fresh this Saturday! Since seeing David Crowder*Band Live at JAMA 2005, I've always wanted to see him again. He is the Awesome. I am excite.

ram bull.

Nothing new in my life so here's a little rambling.

Lakers Preseason begins tonight in a couple of minutes and seriously, I cannot wait to see Kobe and Artest play together. Ron is a gangster. Someone that isn't afraid to play physical and for DAMN sure not afraid of anybody. For those of you who don't know who he is, here's a little something that portrays his past:

Are you excited to see him play? After watching that again, I sure am.

Is it just me, or are shows quoting and imitating the old Robin Williams movie Dead Poets Society a lot lately. First it was on the new show Community (which was filmed partially at Pierce College) and last night on How I Met Your Mother. I'm not complaining though because it's one of my favorite movies and it was hilarious on both shows haha.

An old friend of mine from Texas that goes to Cornell is coming to LA this weekend and the plan is to hang out with her and her friend on Friday with one of my friends. Hope her friend is cute and not a clinger. Not looking to settle down anytime soon. Enjoying the single life a little too much right now but I guess that's a good thing since I'm still young.

Time to watch the game. Carpe Diem.